“One is never afraid of the unknown; one is afraid of the known coming to an end.” – Jiddu Krishnamurti

I spent almost eighteen years with one company—fighting racism, sexism, and the quiet absurdities of corporate life—only to be laid off. When it happened, I felt an instant wave of fear and panic so strong it took my breath away. I couldn’t see, hear, or think clearly. In that moment, I was certain my life was over.

I didn’t know what to do. I had never felt so utterly out of control. There was a brief, dark space where I wasn’t sure I wanted to stay in this world—but love anchored me. The people I care about pulled me back. Even now, though losing my job has placed my health and stability at risk, I am holding on to the smallest ember of hope. Because honestly, what else is there?

“My mind is open to the most wonderful range of future possibilities, which I cannot even dream about.” – Richard Dawkins

Now, as I face the future, I can’t pretend to like the range of possibilities before me—it feels overwhelming, too many decisions all at once. But standing still has never been my way. So I’m choosing to move, even if the steps are uncertain. I’ve applied to volunteer with Health and Human Services, hoping to stand beside those navigating hardship, just as others have stood beside me.